Short Story

Once there was a boy who grew up to be a young man. He tried to fit in some where and after meeting some flamboyant friends. He finally found a place where he could excel.  He worked hard and pushed him self to try bigger and harder challenges.  Along the way he had many heart breaks and painful experiences.  He kept trying, and grew strong with each thing. He never quit. He learned to love other people and help when there was need. The older he got be found that many special people in his life were gone. But he worked hard to keep his heart open.  That boy was a man and his passion was clear to all he met. He was a beautiful soul.  And all he ever wanted was a place to belong and someone to share it with.

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FLYER FOR MISS MID AMERICA

Mattie Madison-Roundup Saloon Dallas

Natahsa Parson and Mattie Madison at Garlows

Febuary was not good.

It has been an interesting month.  To say the least! I have been busy at work. I love my job especially since I got a raise and a good yearly review.  The sit down discussion with my boss was very eye opening.  I didn’t realize how my boss perceived me.  He seem to think that my work is good and right now, he thinks I am ahead of schedule for some one who has been in the group only 11 months.  I felt comfortable enough to really talk to him about how I felt about issues that have gone on in our work group.  So it was a good review.  I have taken on new challenges and my boss recognized my efforts. I am about to celebrate four years at my company. I am excited about that.

I dated some one briefly.   It was a very bad situation. I finally realized that I was beating myself up trying to please him, when he was the one who was NOT good enough for me. I know exactly what I want and will not settle for less.  He has some other personal issues and I felt after dating, that he was a user who was just trying to play me.  Sadly, I almost fell for it. But I have moved on.  He turned out to be a very bad guy, with a criminal past. I have since cut all ties to him. Although he continues to harass me via text and FB.  I have blocked him and may change my number.  For now I ignore his calls and texts and hope he will just go away. If not my friends suggested a restraining order. I really don’t feel safe.   I had to really re think what I am looking for in a relationship.

 I have traveled out of town for a few shows and done more local shows as well. I am also preparing to travel to Nashville in a few weeks to compete in a Miss Mid-America pageant.  It is a regional pageant that sends girls directly to Miss America later this year!  I am very excited to try and think I will do well. Regardless of how I place, it will be a great experience.  I decided months ago to follow my own dreams!  That is what I am doing.

 I finally did my taxes and got the money back. But them was face with major car problems.  So there goes quite a bit of that money.  I intended on upgrading, but have not yet found a car I want and can afford. So I am waiting a while longer.  Its a commitment I don’t really want to go into lightly.  After all I have not had a car payment in over 3 years.  Plus my car is running so good now after being in the shop that I am tempted to keep it!  Spending 700$ in repairs will make you think.  Plus like I said it’s running so smooth now. (Just some thing to think about). They fixed a water pump fitting that was leaking water. My car got a tune-up, new spark plugs and wires, fix vacuum leak, and replaced old fuel regulator.  (Well actually they replaced twice. The first one was faulty and sprayed gas after only driving about 30 miles.) I was in a rental car for a week.  But today she is good.  Its like having a new car again. I just renewed the tags and registration too.  So its good for another year.  I also did some work myself.  I popped out the dent in the bumper that some bitch with no insurance left about two months ago.  It looks scuffed, but much better now that it is not concave. I also replace a bulb that was out. Minor work compared to the big money I dropped at the repair shop.  
I have not written and I’m glad I did today.  As I move into a new month, I am in a better place.  I have faced several challenges and keep smiling and moving forward. 
 I am hosting a show this weekend for charity.  March is turn –about month locally.  The girls become “bois” and the boys become “gurls”….it all in good fun. In fact I’m making a gown for a friend who only does drag once a year.  He is competing for Miss Turn-about pageant.  I do not do turn about!  I have never performed as a DUDE!  “Mattie” is the performer, Tomas is just the mastermind who pushes her to excel.  I would be too embarrassed to do it.  I wouldn’t know how to act. So I will enjoy just hosting.