Friday, January 30, 2015

Vernon College 1993


I graduated in the spring of 1993. I had plans to attend Midwestern State University in Wichita Falls. I had already applied and submitted transcripts along with my ACT results in the early spring.  I was accepted and had spent time visiting the campus and meeting faculty.  Some faculty members, I had met during my senior year at various music competitions. They would come to recruit young aspiring musicians. The music department at Midwestern was a solid program. They were interested in me and had offered me a scholarship to attend their school. My plan was to pursue my fine arts degree in music after years of musical training. College was my ticket out of Electra. They were pleased with my musical abilities and interest peaked when I competed at the Texas All state Solo contest for the past two years. I had also auditioned for the area band and earned first chair.  I was the top player in my area of the state.  Midwestern was not the only school interested in me. I had turned down an offer to attend Oberlin Conservatory of Music in Oberlin, Ohio. The Conservatory of Music offers four-year undergraduate programs leading to the Bachelor of Arts degree. It was a prestigious school that came with a high price tag.  The cost of out of state tuition was a big deal and even with a scholarship, I would go into debt in student loans. There was no way I could reasonably go there. 
About a month before I was to graduate, I was called to the office.  I hated going to the office, and thought I was in trouble.  I had no idea what it was about.  I was introduced a woman named Ann.  I think her last name was Green. I am not sure, after all it has been over twenty years.  She was from Wichita Falls and was in Electra to meet a few students.  Apparently, my name had been given to her.  She was friendly and seen anxious to sit down and talk.  We found a table in the student center.  She asked me about my time in high school.  She seemed to like the fact that I was involved in music. It was unclear to me why she wanted to talk to me.  She also asked about how I was going to pay for college.  I told her I had a scholar ship and some help from my family. Plus I was going to work while taking classes.
Ann asked me if I had ever heard of the JTPA.  That is where she worked.  I had never heard of them.  She explained that there was a program that would allow me to earn some credits during the summer and work part time too.  I had no plans to go to college in the summer,  I was enrolled at MSU in the fall.  She took time to explain more.  Vernon Junior College was part of the program.  They would provide housing in their dorms and students would attend college classes on the Vernon campus.  The program alos provided part time jobs for the students in the program.  There were 40 students in the program that were from towns in the area.  The best part was, there would be no cost to me. My family was considered economically disadvantaged.  That is a polite way of saying, we were poor. 
The Job Training Partnership Act of 1982 (JTPA) was a United States federal law passed October 13, 1982, by the United States Department of Labor during the Ronald Reagan administration. The law was the successor to the previous federal job training legislation, the Comprehensive Employment and Training Act (CETA). It was repealed by the Workforce Investment Act of 1998 during the administration of President Bill Clinton. The law was enacted to establish federal assistance programs to prepare youth and unskilled adults for entry into the labor force and to provide job training to economically disadvantaged and other individuals facing serious barriers to employment. This program would help me earn 12 credits before I started my classes in the fall at MSU. 
Some students started the program in the Summer I semester, but did not come back for the Summer II semester.  I was able to take freshman English, College algebra, and even a history class. I would go to class in the mornings and work in the afternoon.  I was supposed to work at the local library, but was asked if I might like working at the local chamber of commerce instead. They had originally requested a female student to do clerical work. I would have to dress nice every day and wake up early to iron my shirts. Most everyone else went to work assignments in short and t-shirts.  I said yes!  I was a clerical assistant and worked under the direction of the executive assistant Ms. LuJuana Long. She was an older woman who was friendly and smart. She taught me about the chamber business and gave me responsibilities and duties around the office.  I would type letters, file documents and help greet visitors.  I also worked helping the executive director set up for meeting.  His name was John Bates.  He was a super nice older man who could talk your ear off.  He loved telling me stories about how he grew up in far south Texas. They were really good people to work for.  After work each day, I would wait out front of the Wilbarger court house for the van to pick me up and return the students back the college campus.   A few times, the program director Frank Grima, would pick me up in his blue 1965 Impala.  It was old with vinyl bench seats and no air conditioning.
I liked living in the dorms. I had spent time at music summer camps for the last few years, so being away from home was not really a problem for me. Plus Vernon was only 30 minutes away from Electra. I could go home on the weekends and talked to my family often.  I had a roommate who was a pain the neck and very messy. The first day, he had taken over the room and his mess made a terrible first impression.  I don’t think we could have ever been friends. Most time we just stayed out of each other’s way and did not socialize together. So for the second summer semester, I requested a room change.  The program also had mentors who would take us on weekend trips and served as liaisons for the manager of the program.  You could ask them questions about the program and they would coordinate group activities such as dinners out on the weekend and even took the group to see ‘Texas, the outdoor musical” at Palo Duro Canyon near Amarillo.  I made friends with the other students in the program as well as the “regular” students in my classes.  I liked Fridays, because we would get paid for our work and could cash our checks at the campus business office.  I had my own car. A few of us would go eat or occasionally found someone to buy alcohol.  We would drive up and down the local drag which stretched across Wilbarger Street from the court house all the way to college. We would drink in the car.  My mother would have freaked out if she knew, but really I was enjoying my new independence.
My classes all went well.  There was one, algebra, that really kicked my butt, but I passed with a C.  The instructor moved so quickly, I often didn’t understand.  I could tell college was a totally different ball game. 

I was thankful for education and experience I gain that summer.  I would eventually lose touch with friends from Vernon College.  I gained work good experience and enjoyed working the Chamber office. I was touched at the end of the summer when the chamber bought me a small gift for being such a good intern.  They enjoyed teaching me and I enjoyed learning from them.  I had a head start on my college education.  And I gained independence from living in the dorms.  It was a good experience for me and I’m thanks for the people involved in the JTPA program who made it all happen.  

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Friday, January 9, 2015

cars

Cars I have had. 
1978 Monte Carlo -89-90 My first car, smoked a lot, and turned out to be a lemon. But it looked good. Sold it. 
1980 Bonneville -90-93 My moms old car.  Ran really good, and had it for a few years.  Transmission went out
1986 Mercury Topaz -93-94 My Dad bought this car and I hated it.  But it ran. I drove this my freshman year in college. It had a short and some times the lights would not come on.
1985 Buick Electra-  94-97 Drove this car in college.  It was a great car that I bought on my own.  I paid it off in one year and drove it for two more without a payment. That was nice.
1990 Chevy Lumina- 1997-1999 This was aAnother good car.  Used, but still nice. Black with red interior. I used to drive it to Dallas on the weekends.
1990 Ford Bronco II- 1999-2000. This car was clean, but at the time I was not able to make the payments, so it got reposed.
1985 Nissan Sentra 2000 This was an old car, but I needed one. It was blue and she liked to drive fast.
1984 Olds 98 2000-2001   This was a great old car. I used my tax return to by it for cash.  I was only working part time and it was nice having no payment.  I gave this car to my mother.  She drove it for a few more years.  I hav a pic some where of us next to it. 
1985 Buick LaSabre 2001-2004  GW and I saw this on the carlot.  Paid cash for it so we would have a second car.  I drove it primarily.  I had the windows tinted and it looked good. 
1990 Chevy Suburban 2002-2005 GW sold his truck and drove this Suburban after we moved to Arlington.  He drove it while in graduate school at UTA.
1994 Chevy Lumina 2002-2007 We sold the suburban after it  was stolen and returned to us with damage. GW took over driving the LaSabre and I paid cash for the Lumina.  I had had two cars after he passed away.  I eventually sold  both. There was no need in having two cars. 
1994 Bonneville 2005-2009 I got the Bonneville  about a year before GW died.  It was super clean and it was paid off no long after that.  So I kept it fro a few years and only had major work done it once.  I was broke a lot, so no payments was blessing.  The transmission went out and the engine was in bad shape. So I sold it .  I remember how bad that day felt. It was was hard letting go of things at that point. 
1996 Bonneville 2009-2013 I changed jobs and got a better. I had some money saved and put a down payment. It just happened to be another Bonneville. This was a great car, The Mattie Mobile.   I got in a wreck and it was totaled.  Scott came to the hospital and took care of me. 
2000 Infiniti I30 2013 I used my whole check and money from a friend to get another car.  I lked this car, but after a few months, it started having problems.  I could not afford to fix them all.  I let the dealer have it back. 

2013 Hyundai Sonata 2014-present Scott and I bought this car together.  I call her the Baby Blue Rocket. 

I typed this really fast. please for give my spelling and grammar and punctuation. 

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Am I special yet?

When I was a kid, no one ever asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up.  I really had no idea what I could become.  I used to make up plays, and act out movies or Tv shows with my siblings. But no one really cared about the future.  We were too busy just being kids.  Perhaps if someone had planted the seed into my head, I would have given it some real thought and worked at a young age to make that dream come true.  It amazes me when you see 14 year old teenagers in the Olympics.  I assume they trained for years to achieve high level of success in athletic sport such as gymnastics.  I might have wanted to be a doctor and dream of helping the sick. Perhaps an early curiosity in science may have lead me in that direction.  Or maybe I would be a lawyer I would win cases and sending criminals to jail.  That would have been rewarding.  Once we took a field to the central fire station in Wichita Falls.  Our town only had a small volunteer fire department.  So, Wichita Falls Fire Department was the real deal.  We got to meet firemen and see the big trucks as part of our tour. Being a fire man would have been an exciting career.   I may have wanted to be a rock star.  I remember kids would dress up as a rock star for Halloween.  My parents never pushed me into activities such as sports. I probably would have resisted, if they had.  We had local little league and school sports, but I had no interest. I did, however play summer baseball, but never was very good at it. I was always in right field.  I only played two seasons. I got involves in scouts in elementary school, my mother was our Den leader.  We had weekly meetings and community projects.  They were fun and we worked to earn merit badges.  I did meet one man, a Scout leader from another town.  His group was at the same summer camp as ours.  He has friendly and seemed to enjoy teaching and mentoring.  He told me that one day I would be someone very special. I don’t know if anyone had ever said that to me before. I sure didn’t feel very special.  I was always struggling, trying to fit in.  As I think about it now, I wonder if maybe he knew I would be gay. Perhaps I exhibited some characteristics as a child, I’m not sure.  I don’t think that kids are aware of such things while they are happening. I some time wonder if I ever became someone special.  I guess you don’t see it while its happening. 

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

New Year's Eve past

I used to spend every New Year‘s Eve in drag all through my twenties.  It was fun.  Friends and I would all meet up at the bar and ringing in the New Year together with party hats over our wigs and noise makers in our hands.  We would dress in our most glamorous party drag.  We would spend time styling wigs and buying makeup, and sometimes new outfits. The Asian ladies at the wig store loved a group of gay cross-dressers in their store.  They didn't care, they saw dollar signs and were eagar to let us try on wigs.  I remember beaded cocktail dresses were in style in the 90’s.  I had a purple and gold one that was my favorite. It paired well with some size 11 black heels that were comfortable to wear all evening.  Back when I started drag, most of my shoes were black, because shoe sizes were hard to find.  And my outfits were black too.  I would drive across town to get the larger sizes from Payless.  But you had to get there before the black ladies raided the store.  They would wipe out the 11,12 and 13’s.  New Years was always a good time. The bar would be packed.  All of the tables would be reserved. But for me, the drag social butterfly it didn't matter.  I would mingle all night and enjoy being “seen” in my best drag.  In a small city, I knew most everyone at the bar. After all it was the only bar in town.  I was also no stranger to a free drink or two.  We drag queens would also travel in packs to use the men’s room.  Most night we would use the ladies room, but on this big night, these were already too many females in there.  Plus most butch dikes were offended by men in dresses peeing standing up.  But it was the call of nature, but it took an extra minute to retuck our dicks and shimmy up our panty hose again.  Perhaps females were just impatient or felt invaded. 
I always felt the bar was more a men’s bar. Men liked  to drink and socializing and taking home the occasional trick from the bar. Lesbian couples on the other hand were more inclined to be domestic.   They would meet and quickly move in together after a few weeks.  They always seemed to want to play house.  I guess that was a girl thing; making families with a domestic partner and children from previous relationships.  Men seemed to enjoy sleeping around or having anonymous sex in the local parks. Some even got arrested for doing so. No one was interested in true dating and getting to know another guy. Two guys living together in Wichita Falls also made life difficult because of closed minded community. I only knew a few committed couples back then.  I guess most gay guys wanted to be free, and not confined to martial roles. This is something that is more accepted in today’s society.  Men like to play house now too.  The challenge has always been finding a man who would accept the wigs, clothes and make up.  

Spring track meet 1985

In the spring, my elementary school would have a city track meet.   Much a like a real competitive track meet, the elementary school tra...